indecisive

I have a really huge problem with not being needed. Like when I volunteer to do something for someone and then I end up not having to because there was a more convenient option for them. I feel like if I’m not needed to do anything then I’m not good enough; I have no purpose in life. I cannot stand it when I can’t do anything to help. Like with my boyfriend. He’s been sick for almost a week now and I can’t do anything about it. Sure I brought him Jamba Juice and I kept him company today. But he couldn’t stop coughing. He felt miserable and his chest hurt and his nose was bleeding and I couldn’t help him. All I was doing was occupying space. It kills me to be so helpless and useless.